A Reminder To You

Dear Me,

I hope you're doing well. I hope you're taking good care of yourself and sticking to your carefully planned goals. If I remember correctly, what you wanted wasn't all that complicated. It was pretty simple. All you wanted is to get your then shitty life together, fixed, organized, and well, you just wanted to be a normal brilliant girl (if there was such a thing, it would be you). You wanted to get away from the crap hole that you've been trapped in for years and you wanted to get far, far away from it. Because it was the only way you can be you, brilliant and everything you should be. You wanted to be happy and successful, surrounded by great people with great minds and great hearts. Those are the people who deserve your company. Quit being too nice and be more of a jerk in desperate circumstances. This is the point in time when you want to be safe from things that could distract you from achieving that. Weed out the negative and anything that can pull you down and avoid them at all cost.

I'm somewhat disappointed that you've somewhat lost track of time, plans, and who you should be. But you're only human and I understand completely. So I guess I would have to forgive you and give you another chance. After all, this is our first time to really live life. Dwelling on minor distractions that didn't really foil the plans isn't productive.

I guess it would be time to re-evaluate what the plans and goals are. What do you really want the future to be? Are you turning out to be the person you've always wanted to be?

It makes me feel unhappy sometimes. I just think I can do so much better. This isn't everything I wanted to be. You're supposed to be better than everyone and the best at what you do, at everything you do. So do it. Take this time to rest and wake up tomorrow with renewed clarity and strength. Keep the goals in mind, don't stop to smell the roses. Bring shears and cut them all to the ground and take as much as you want if you have to. It's okay, the bushes will grow back roses. That way, the deadlines are met and you're enjoying life at the same time.

The future is always the number one priority. No one can stop me from achieving greatness except for you. So quit standing in my way.

I hope that this letter will remind you what's important and to motivate you to keep trudging on, soldier. You're not average so don't act like you belong with the average. You're a winner and nothing else makes you happy than being a winner. Make it happen and don't leave it to chance.

Work Hard, Play Hard. Set the future and enjoy the present.

Yours Truly,
Liziel Estacio